"HERO" TO ZERO

February the NINETEENTH. It all started like any routine Thursday. Bla Bla Bla, fast-forward, until someone was too rushing to go to the toilet and parked illegally on the shoulder of the road resulting the car got clamped. Unlucky day for him but SERVE YOU RIGHT! LOL. As any friend would do, I fetched him to the Campus Security Office to pay the fine then off to Sports Centre for our KO-K session. After 4 straight weeks of no handball practice, I was all fired up on that day.

We started by doing some warming up and also some pace training with the Assistant Coach. As soon as the Head Coach came, he divided us into 3 groups for a few round of games. In the earlier games, I missed a few sitters and hit the post once. The right side of the wing wasn’t working as expected so others decided I moved my position to the right. The game play changes and I manage to score a goal! Soon defense turns to attack and I received the ball, managed to cut in and evade an opponent, leaped and fired a shot on goal! BANG! The ball hits the woodwork! The next thing I know I was rolling on the ground, all visions black out. Straight away I knew it was an occurrence of old injuries, my right ankle started to swell and the pain was UNBEARABLE!

Goose Egg?

Right after training ended, my coursemates decided its best to go for an x-ray. Lewin drove me along with Jayee and Kok Heng to Emergency and Trauma Unit, University Hospital. Got a wheel chair for me, got through the registration process and then we got scolded from the receptionist for a reason. HAHA! Later on, Keng Hong and Eng Kian joined the party, and started GOSSIPING while one of us had to start “reporting”! Sorry ya but I couldn’t help of not writing!

Keng Hong, Eng Kian, Lewin, Kok Heng, Jayee

After long hours of waiting, it was my turn to meet the doctor accompanied by Lewin and Jayee. I was lucky to meet Dr. Farid who is a good and funny doctor. He told me not to be a kid when he examined my leg and I got laughed at, worse was when he told me that it could take 2-3 weeks of recovery as I expected more of a 2-3 days. On a safe side, he sent me for an x-ray. As soon as my uncle arrived, he pressured me to persuade my friends to call it a day, and at last I give up to that pressure was feeling so bad that I couldn’t join them for dinner as they had waited long past their dinner time for me. He even made a big fuss informing my parents. Results came back and it confirmed my worse fear, it is a 6-8 weeks RECOVERY PERIOD and there is calcium in my tendon together with old injuries. Now, it is 3 injuries each so it is kinda balanced rite?

After precious 5 hours in UH which cost me RM50, my uncle took me back to Cheras and got me Ayam Goreng McD which it was for my breakfast, lunch and dinner as I had not taken anything that day. Couldn’t sleep well and the next day I had to use clutches. Thanx for all the text and calls wishing fast recovery! Thanx to those who was there at UH and also my uncle for the care and food! Extra special thanx to Jayee who helped me lots fetching me to and from classes besides accompanying me to the clinic! Also all kind of rumours starts to pop out like I’ve done a 360 flip for the shot? HAHA!

Day After Bruises

Well, I am back in Malacca on Tuesday to rest, but I have to endure nagging after nagging from my mother and grandmother! But it is good to have someone to take care of you with constant leg massages. My walking rehabilitation process starts today yet I still can’t put any pressure on my right leg. SIGH.

&!@^
~speedy recovery~

A GAME OF CHESS

Dad’s 5 philosophies of chess :

1. Both side starts equally; it is us who decide our fate with every crucial move so don’t just think of the next move, but always think deep and far

2. Exchanges is necessary and can be lost but sacrifices is always needed to achieve the greater good

3. It is not capturing the most pieces who win in the end but first to get the highest hierarchy

4. One lost pawn makes a big difference in defence

5. We wouldn’t know what the opponent thinks but we can always predict and dictate his/her movements

“Chess is like life”
Boris Spassky

“You have to have the fighting spirit. You have to force moves and take chances”
Bobby Fischer

“Life is a kind of Chess, with struggle, competition, good and ill events”
Benjamin Franklin

LETTIN GO

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

There come times, in the context of love and romance, when we must learn to let go. Maybe the relationship was not meant to be? By letting go, I am not implying "to forget" or "to ignore." However, I need to let go in the sense of releasing emotional baggage I may be carrying around with me, so that I may be open to, and present for, a new relationship. Too many of us are trying to keep a tight grip on things that are out of our control. This is like trying to grip the water flowing in a river. Put your hands into the river. If you try to get the water by grabbing it and clenching your fists, it goes right out of your hands. If you relax and open, gently cupping your hands, the water flows into your palms. By relaxing, opening, and trusting, we can hold onto more of what is precious to us. By letting go, we actually allow more of the mystery of life to come in for us.

I am letting go. Letting go isn’t gonna end my world. Letting go isn’t gonna make my heart stops. There is always rainbow after the rain. If you are strong enough to make it through the storm, then now it is time for me to sit back and enjoy the rainbow. I ain’t going to look back AGAIN! There is a reason why there is something that is called PRESENT and FUTURE.

Isn't that what we wanted all along
Freedom like a stone
Maybe we were wrong
But I can say goodbye
Now that the passion's died
Still it comes so slow
The letting go

The Letting Go - Melissa Etheridge

TILL NEXT

&!@^

~Let Bygones Be Bygones~