Its FIVE days short of our FIVE years but that 5 years had been undeniably such a phenomenal time. Many days has passed us by, I AM missing you, this I won’t lie; I CAN’T lie it’s gonna hurt me. That day could be the saddest time to date. This is something I hate to do. This is the hardest letter that I had to make, and I hope this will be the last time I had to make one. I’m not writing this letter to talk about how you broke my heart into a million pieces but there are so many things I have to say, many questions left to be answered, differences to be settled. Every night, I’ve been sleeping with this weight on my chest, wondering when it will be less severe. I deserved to know the truth, for no matter how much the truth hurts, eventually, hopefully, it will be a remedy for the broken heart. It never came across my mind that this would be killing and that I would shed tears writing all this but I have to continue what I’ve started.
If u asked me to DESCRIBE you in words, I really can’t, because no words in this world could ever be used describe you. Your entry into my life breathed life to me. LOVING you has been like breathing to me. It seems natural, no extra efforts necessary. It wouldn’t be exaggerating if I say that all the flower blooms when I’m with you. I was enthralled by the beauty of your smile, the twinkle in your eyes, the passion of your kisses. Believe me when I say this, you have stamped your mark on me. You’ve always been there for me, THANK YOU for the extraordinary love you’ve poured onto me, which again no words could ever describe it. THANK YOU for all the untouchable memories you had given me. THANK YOU.
I MISS YOU Alicia.Lok.Yeong.Shih, just as I have in every moment in the last 1820 DAYS that I have been with you. My HEART was never really satisfied unless I was holding you in my arms. I have loved loving you and being loved by you. You took my hand and gently lead me through my blinds. You have grabbed hold of my love and embraced it like no one ever has. I can’t walk out just yet because I LOVE YOU too much baby! YOU meant the world to me. All I’m hoping for is that you’ll remember the song we cherished together “How Do I Live Without You” by Leanne Rimes.
I have so much EMOTION in my heart. I never thought this would happen, never thought that it would be over, that we would say our last goodbye. How? Why is this so? What seems to be so strong between us seemed so strong had been gone? I tried to change for you, trust me I did, but my efforts were not enough. I hope somehow, I made your life special, though I've not been perfect for you. And I’m SORRY I didn’t try harder. I’m SORRY for breaking your heart countless of times. Forgive me for all the wrongdoings, mistakes or even if you think that I didn’t love you enough. It was never my intention to disrespect or to make you cry or unhappy. ONLY IF, I wore a red cape, I would turn back time and done things differently. BUT, now u can count on me to be there for you when you needed me.
NOW, that you’ve gone I don’t know what to do. I’m at lost. I’m standing at a cross-road with no signboards, no one to lead me. The days would be bored empty; the nights would be lonely long. I’m so lonely when you’re not here with me; needless to say that MY LIFE wouldn’t be the same ever without you. SOMETHING SOMEPART OF ME IS GONE SOMEWHERE!
All-in-all, the path had been blurring for me even till now. Until I take the road not taken, I wouldn’t know what awaits me. When letting go becomes less painful than holding on, I’m learning slowly to let you go, but memories of you will always remain intact with me. Bet it’s never gonna be that simple maybe not anytime soon. As saying goes “You’ll never really appreciate it till you’ve lost it”. I’ve lost you as a LOVER; the last thing I wouldn’t ever want is to lose you as a friend. HOPEFULLY, I’ll have the courage and strength strong enough soon to call and talk to you. For now, I wish you Happiness and Joy.
How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How Do I Live Without You – Leanne Rimes
TILL MY EMO-NESS SUBSIDES
Hug Hug Kiss Kiss
&!@^
~vivo per lei~
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